I’m finished. I walked out of my last class today after 16 years of traditional education. I can’t describe the feeling of freedom I have now–like for the first time, my time is my own. I can do whatever I want. I can focus on my recovery full-time, which is something that is long overdue. I didn’t allow myself to take time off from school when I needed to because I was afraid of losing my scholarships and getting behind. I wouldn’t recommend being a full-time student with any type of illness, but I did it and it’s done and I can finally move on and focus on getting well. I’m in a state of limbo right now and truly I think that is the best place for me. I may never again get a chance to take a break like this. So for those of you asking what’s next for me, it’s getting better. I don’t want to talk about grad school or finding my dream job right away. I might go back to fast food for a while. I might be broke for a while. I might let myself be okay with imperfection and not have a long-term plan for a while. I know I’ll get where I’m supposed to be when I’m supposed to be there. For now, this is where I am: single, childless, a little scared and free as a bird. I’m at the heart of Annie, and it’s a good place to be.
featured image via my best friend. ❤