Walking Free

I’m finished. I walked out of my last class today after 16 years of traditional education. I can’t describe the feeling of freedom I have now–like for the first time, my time is my own. I can do whatever I want. I can focus on my recovery full-time, which is something that is long overdue. I didn’t allow myself to take time off from school when I needed to because I was afraid of losing my scholarships and getting behind. I wouldn’t recommend being a full-time student with any type of illness, but I did it and it’s done and I can finally move on and focus on getting well. I’m in a state of limbo right now and truly I think that is the best place for me. I may never again get a chance to take a break like this. So for those of you asking what’s next for me, it’s getting better. I don’t want to talk about grad school or finding my dream job right away. I might go back to fast food for a while. I might be broke for a while. I might let myself be okay with imperfection and not have a long-term plan for a while. I know I’ll get where I’m supposed to be when I’m supposed to be there. For now, this is where I am: single, childless, a little scared and free as a bird. I’m at the heart of Annie, and it’s a good place to be.

featured image via my best friend. ❤

5 thoughts on “Walking Free

  1. FREE AT LAST FREE AT LAST THANK GOD ALMIGHTY YOUR FREE AT LAST 🙂 Im going to help and support you as much as i can to get well too & you will be well YOUR A OVERCOMER ❤

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  2. I like it! I really like that your motivation is toward getting better. I can’t really see that anything is more important than that. Life in recovery is not easy but the brain works (bonus), tools for anxiety are learned and implemented, reestablishing priorities is itself something that will be used for the rest of one’s life. Good for you!!

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    1. Thank you! You’re right–nothing is more important. I was told that during undergrad, but with professors in your face all the time telling you what’s important, it’s hard to see that. Graduating brought me clarity and a sense of freedom.

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