Morning Tea: Waiting for a Green Light

I’ve been reading a lot of stuff lately about why I shouldn’t care what others think and how a good life is built in the present, not the future.

All of this has me asking, what am I waiting for?

I feel like (and I have felt this way since I was a child) I am waiting for life to give me some sort of green light of permission to live the life I really want to live. But why am I waiting? Why do I feel like I’m at a traffic stop in the first place? Who put this red light here?

I did. Without even realizing it. As small children, we learn to inhibit many of our thoughts and actions. We learn to “behave” and be well-mannered to fit into a civilized society.

This is all fine and good, except I’m not a little kid anymore.

Somewhere along the line, as I was growing up–and I believe this is a common thing for many of us–I took this concept too far. It’s not just about acceptable manners anymore; it’s about acceptable thoughts, ideas, opinions, life decisions and even appearances.

As a child, I inhibited my inner voice in order to avoid being reprimanded by people who had clear authority over me: teachers, parents, etc. As an adult, I do the same thing to avoid being criticized by people whose opinions have virtually no value and no clear consequences.

I’m not at a red light. I’m at a fear stop.

I’m tired of waiting. I’m tired of being afraid of things that don’t even exist in the physical realm.

Maybe I don’t need a green light. Maybe I’ll just go.

Read my follow-up to this post here.


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7 thoughts on “Morning Tea: Waiting for a Green Light

  1. This is SO true. You’re waiting for a green light that is never going to come. You have permission to live your life simply because you ARE alive. Live your life ❤ xo

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