Morning Tea is a new series of posts where I write whatever comes to mind as I enjoy my hot tea in the morning, written in 15 minutes or less. ❤
Today is a day I have been waiting for over a month. Actually, I’ve been waiting since my diagnosis three years ago, I just didn’t know it. Today is a very important day.
I am finally going to meet with a registered dietician who specializes in eating disorders! I feel like a child on Christmas morning.
This is so exciting for me because this is someone who can really be a guiding light for me where I struggle most. The missing piece of the puzzle. Finding doctors and therapists was a lot easier than finding a nutritionist who knew what to do with me.
This is my second relapse. I have decided that I want to get better but I can’t do it alone. I have kind of just been blindly trying to heal my relationship with food myself but I always felt like something was off. Who better to see than a relationship expert? 😉
My hopes for this appointment are that the dietician will be able to give me some guidance and peace of mind regarding food. Knowing that I can trust her to help me through this process takes a lot of pressure off.
Before, I had a little help from others when it came to eating right but never to the degree that I really needed. Hopefully she will be able to provide me with a meal plan to make sure I’m getting exactly what I need. Structure would be really helpful, I think.
I feel like this is something I have been waiting for for a very long time–before I even knew I had an eating disorder! It feels really, really good. I’m happy to have hope.
I’m also really proud of myself for doing this. No one pushed me to see a nutritionist. After three years, I suppose everyone thought I would have it figured out by now. Wrong, but that’s okay. I’m doing this for myself. I’m even footing my own bill because I told my health is a worthy investment–a huge step in self-love for me.
It’s never too late to get the help you need. No matter how long you’ve been fighting, it’s always okay to call in backup. The best warriors do.
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